December 2008
10 posts
jfsdaoiuhuetihuisgdusd!
no words to describe how happy/excited/ecstatic i am!
i love you.
i love you.
i love you.
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it doesn't feel like christmas.
cause i don’t have you.
my christmas wish?
to look absolutely gorgeous, get the boy back, curl up in pajamas, drink hot cocoa, have a warm fire going, fall asleep watching a movie, know that he’s mine again.
that’s all.
oh, i had a lot to say, was thinking on my time...
i missed you and things weren’t the same. cause everything inside, it never comes out right. and when i see you cry, it makes me wanna die. i’m sorry i’m bad, i’m sorry you’re blue. i’m sorry about all the things i said to you, and i know i can’t take it back. i love how you kiss, i love all your sounds, and baby, the way you make my world go ‘round....
let's just stop, drop everything, forget each...
i’m so close to being done. you’ve been stringing me along for quite long enough i think, and honestly it’s not fair. especially since i think we both know who’s heart you’re going to be breaking in the end. it’s to the point where i have no faith, no hope, and i don’t even know if the feelings we had our real. how could they be if you’re willing to...
i also should just listen to my mother.
“well hon, it seems like through everything; the ups, the downs, the fights, the tears, the laughter, the joy, the love, the disappointment, the pain, the hurt, the break ups, and the make ups, you’ve always known what you wanted. you wanted to stay by his side, work things out, be together, be committed to each other, and never leave each other. it seems like his mind always changes....
love remembers the smell of a summer day.
lying in a hammock over fresh cut grass, and the promise of forever. love remembers the sound of the pouring rain, beating down on the top of the car, on the side of the road where it couldn’t wait. yeah, love remembers.
i wish i could just forget you. or lose the feelings i have. or at least not be at your beck and call. but i can’t seem to walk away from you. even though i’m...
when you look me in the eyes, and tell me that you...
every thing’s alright, when you’re right here by my side. when you look me in the eyes, i catch a glimpse of heaven. i find my paradise, when you look me in the eyes. how long will i be waiting, to be with you again? gonna tell you that i love you in the best way that i can. i can’t take a day without you here, you’re the light that makes my darkness disappear.
i love so...
November 2008
3 posts
holy shit.
everything is so different.
i like it a lot.
the only thing i don’t like: it’s still just as confusing.
i can take you away from here.
november 1st was the AC/DC concert in chicago, which i forgot to mention. it was amazing.
nothing exciting throughout the week. november 5th was very hard and i cried multiple times throughout the day. it was so hard to cope with the fact that we would have been together for a year. even harder to think about the reason we weren’t together for it; me. why did i screw us up? i don’t...
nothing but your t-shirt on.
i can’t believe in 3 days it would have been our one year.
i can’t stop crying. i miss you.
October 2008
7 posts
i'm tired of being your unofficial girl.
so, i haven’t written in this for quite a while. so let the updating begin. oh, but first; oreos & milk
alright, so now that i’m all settled in. let’s see; so i think i left off with saturday..? well it was technically sunday morning, but you get the gist. so sunday nothing happened. and all week was pretty amazing. i’ve been feeling really happy and i really like it....
in every circle of friends there's a whore.
tonight. was. amazing.
first off; today deanna had her baby. a little baby boy. tyler matthew craft. 7 pounds and 13 ounces. 18 and a half inches long. the cutest little baby ever. so i was at the hospital all day. then i got home and talked to kya and we decided we wanted to hang out, haha. so we were walking around and i was like “let’s go to chris’ house” cause she told...
you're tearin' me apart.
he’s lovin’, he’s touchin’, he’s squeezin’ another. he’s tearin’ you apart every day.
tonight is super fucking lame. like seriously? i’m sitting alone by myself on a friday night. not only that but all i’ve done all day is hang out my dad and grandma. and on top of that, my mom rented me movies from blockbuster. but do i watch them? no....
my soul is useless without you.
aw, i got my call at 1:11. even though you were with your friends and even though i was sleeping. you called cause you knew i had a bad day and that means the world to me, even though we didn’t talk.
mm so i woke up at 6am cause of a stupid bad dream. then layed there, got up, peed, went back to bed. haha. then i woke up at 9 and slept off and on until 11. then i woke up ferreal. i’m...
you aren't even worth mentioning.
four years later and you still creep up in my thoughts. my body trembles at the sound of your name. when i think about what happened i instantly put my guard up and can’t stop shaking. you’re the only person who has the ability to instill that much fear into me. i’ll never see you again and yet you still haunt my dreams. maybe it’s because i know it could happen to someone...
it's your love; it just does something to me.
my head is getting too crowded with all the thinking i’m doing. i feel like i have a constant headache, though i’m not in any pain. i hate hurting people and i hate putting my heart on the line, but it’s what i need to do. i see myself with him, even if no one else could ever understand why. i wish i didn’t get him involved in this though. he’s a great kid, and he...