October 14, 2008

it’s your love; it just does something to me.

my head is getting too crowded with all the thinking i’m doing. i feel like i have a constant headache, though i’m not in any pain. i hate hurting people and i hate putting my heart on the line, but it’s what i need to do. i see myself with him, even if no one else could ever understand why. i wish i didn’t get him involved in this though. he’s a great kid, and he doesn’t deserve what i’m putting him through. but even if i didn’t keep going back to con, i wouldn’t have feelings for him.

it’s so complicated, yet so simple. even with all the shit we’ve been through and how intense our roller-coaster-relationship is; you make me so completely happy and i love you to death. all the fighting, tears, hurtful words, and ignored calls don’t mean a thing when i’m with you. i just want to be with you again, happy and in love, the way we’re meant to be.

on a lighter note; break will be done after this week but it’s been incredible. i love my friends. and i love talking to dom on aim, so, i’m gone.